Saturday, Dec. 22, 2001

fuck christmas

Emotional Tug of War SUCKS!!!!

I support you. I'm always there for you. I cheer you on. I smile when you smile. It's like in your eyes I can't do anything right. One day it's good, then you pull away. I'm so fucking confused. Pull me close then push me away!

I think the real problem there is that I found out I can’t move out as planned. Why doesn’t he just say what’s really bothering him.

I think I’m going to go get in my car and go on a vacation. Go somewhere for the holidays. Fuck everyone. Fuck Christmas. Fuck it all. I’ll spend $250 and go have a good time alone.

Wait…..whats that gonna help. I’m just going to move out and tell no one where I am. Simple. All problems solved.

I'm capable. I'm not stupid. You're not an asshole.... I'm a loser instead.

I always take the blame for everything. I just wanted a Christmas present from me.

Fuck Christmas...I'm leaving.

Why can't you ever just say what you really mean?

poetical at 9:59 p.m.

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