Maybe I’m not past the betrayal. Maybe I hold onto everything bad for far too long. I’m going to turn the corner on 2001 and never look back. I’m going to snap that rubber band on my tender wrist until I feel nothing from it anymore. Until there’s not even a red line welt across it to show me what used to be there hurting me.

Strangely, I am happy tonight. I am happy because it’s all going to be new and different and better. I know that my future is in my own hands and next year will be better. Tomorrow I’ll see “Buckys” face and have a great time watching him in the midst of his Christmas joy.

I’m going to let myself drink some eggnog and eat Christmas dinner. Tomorrows a freebie day on my diet, but I’m gonna watch myself too. I’m going to smile and be happy. And I’m going to overcome. I want to be a happy girl again inside and out. And I now know I can have those things.

To “him”…thank you for always saying what somebody needs to be saying to me at the right times. It means the world to me. And thanks for giving me reasons to believe in people again. I believe in you and more importantly I now believe in myself.

To everyone that’s been a friend to me, I wish you all the best. To all my readers...